I thought perhaps I'm allergic to June but no, the other malaise I remember was in May, 2009. When I first started this blog I wrote a lot more than I do now. Back in '09 I knew I was in a strange place when I didn't feel like wiriting. These days it's taking photos that is usually a daily urge. This time it's a bit of a on/off thing. One day I feel almost my old self, the next I'd tired and can't be bothered with anything.
I suppose we can all, from time to
time, be gripped by moods that are vastly different from our usual mien.
A little random gene that manages to fight its way past all the others
that dominate, fights its way to the surface and takes command for a
time before being beaten back into the depths by the daily troops. My
little random gene has held all the others at bay for two weeks – pretty good
going for something that only pops up maybe once every five years or so.
The only word I can think of to describe my mood is a malaise
which is a word I associate with Victorian ladies who fainted and
swooned and drifted around the place in a dream. Weren’t they always
sinking into a malaise at the drop of a hat? In my malaise I just feel
exhausted, lifeless, have zero energy, it's an effort to walk to the
kitchen to turn on the kettle let alone feed myself. I don't feel
unwell in any way, I just don’t feel well.
And my mind is as
decrepit as my body, can’t concentrate, I've put down two books unfinished as they were suddenly far too difficult to follow. I even
had trouble following the plot in a bodice ripper. Thank heavens for the FIFA World Cup, at least there is something exciting to watch on telly.
I know that eventually
my daily genes will regain command, I will wake up one morning and my old self will be back. My old self with or without the urge to write or take photos. Last time when the random gene was fought off, the urge to write had gone.
This morning I saw my daughter invite others to take part in a Facebook July Photo a Day challenge. I will join her. Hopefully the challenge of finding subjects for the different daily topics will get me motivated to move my bones. I will try to post them here but, if that is too difficult (and most things feel a bit too difficult at the moment and I've been struggling with the osteo which has spread from my hips to my elbows and wrists and can make sitting here a bit painful) they will go straight on to Facebook.
And that will hopefully take care of July. At the beginning of August I'm going home to Brisbane for a month. I know I will perk up then!
Today's topic is Red + White. Photo taken out the car window today on the corner of Otaika Valley Road, while praying for patience from the logging truck driver behind me waiting to turn onto SH1.